I could see her eyes filling up when she saw them, and then I felt bad, like I'd just shown her a dead animal. Horrible. She said maybe we should keep them. I said no - someday if you want to get married you'll have your own. I never know for sure if I say the right things. I know that she needs to let go of some burdens, but I also know that kids always wish for their family to be whole. It's a balancing act between respecting feelings & acknowledging that wounds leave scars, and acceptance/moving forward. We talked about what the money will be used for - so we are okay now. I think.
(Unfortunately holding these gave me some ugly flashbacks, Lord-of-the-Rings style. It was a relief to hand them over... like throwing them into the fires of Mount Doom! ha)
I was in a mad scramble to sell off anything of value, but the list was short. I can't sell my tools!
Now I'm at the end of my resources. I don't have any other jewelry. My 401k isn't big enough to wipe out; I'd lose so much in taxes that it wouldn't help me. I am resisting the urge to do illegal things for profit.
Of course my kids and the fact that JESUS CAN SEE ME are probably enough to keep me in line. :)
So. The start date for building is not clear yet.
The next step belongs to God.